Baby Girl

During my last post I detailed the experience I had the day Gabriel was born. This birth was almost exactly the same with the exception of one thing. When I looked over the blue sheet I saw my baby girl.

I was very excited and happy to be a father for the first time. I had so many feelings and emotions going thru my mind. Many had to do with the joys of taking my buddy camping, hunting, fishing, hiking, playing soccer, participating in the Boy Scouts together, and basically doing all the fun manly things we men like to do together. It was strange when I would think about the prospects of having a girl. I had no idea how I would react. I didn’t have any particular insight on what we would be having but I secretly had a desire to have a baby girl so I could learn of those emotions. However, I was not prepared for what was about to happen.

When Gabriel was born it took my breath away, when Angelina was born my heart skipped a beat. I had a lot of emotions with Gabriel but I had a completely different set of emotions with Angelina. My thoughts did not lead to games, or camping or cuts and bruises but instead my thoughts led to more delicate things. I want to see how cute she looks when Carrie dresses her up. I want to see how she looks at me when I come home from work. I can’t wait to see her grow up. I want to see her on her wedding day. I fear for the lives of the young men who come to take her out on dates. I can’t wait to see the look on those same young men when I show them my Springfield Armory XD .45. However, the thought or the emotion that stands out to me the most is the overwhelming desire to be a better man so that she will know what to look for when the time comes to seek a husband.

I love my eternal sweetheart so much. I am so completely in love with her. With each addition to our family I fall even more in love with her. I have the most amazing family on this planet. I love my son. Even now I see all my strengths in him without my weaknesses. I pray that I can be the father he needs. I love my daughter. In her I see the reasons why honor and integrity are values with immeasurable value. In her I already see the qualities that drew me to my wife. She is just as beautiful and just as sweet. I am the luckiest man I know, and I want to express my love and joy publicly.

Carrie I love you. Thank you for your love. Thank you for my son. Thank you for my daughter. Finally, thank you for my dog.